SO many things tO think and frust about... From feelings..to money and education...
All I wish is just to end this year smoothly that's all ..
Cuz I'm currently sick of this condition now..
I wanna start to earn my living..
wanna repay back those good deeds that I owe or I'm supposed to return...
Crucial manners of all... I need to start saving money for the engagement ring that I had to get... But how m I supposed to save money in this condition where I only have sufficient amount of money to eat? An amount of pocket money which nt big and just enough to fill in my stomach whenever I'm hungry...
Where
M
I
Gonna get those money ???
I had to settle all this by end of this year...
Big sighs for me... And another stress coming in..
My heart is pressed so as my feelings!
God help me and my family.. If anyone would understand me..
I wonder is there anyone who has the same issue as mine..
Tears and
Laughter...blood and sweat... All I want here
Is just to make you're life
Happier than ever..
Better than before.. Erasing those bad
Memories and have a good shinny bright future with me...
I wanna be the one who will be holding your hand
Till the day we sleep in the casket..
Seeing people laugh, I could do the same... But, only for a short precious second..
Will continue blogging next time. I had to much to settle for now. I wish I had the money! Although it sounds materialistic.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Hectic hours
It was a night where me and my friends where supposed to go to zouk for clubbing, with the help Of my wifey cupcake... We got da VIP place.. But things hanged when I received a phone call from my brother when I was in sunway having my quick dinner at the ming Tien kopitiam..
As soon as I received the bad news saying that my house was robbed, me my baby cupcake and Nikke rushed back to my place to check out whats goin on.
Of all things, the robber just had to take my CPU away... And casuin me now not able to do any work at all... Kiss goodbye to my desktop at my very own final year of my course where I gota do my projects and stuff!?! It's a big WTF moment and I was Not happy of course.
Lost precious stuffs like mums jewelry, some money.. My CPU.. and nearly lost my brothers wii set including his tv. Funny thing happened was my DSLR is left untouched.
After the happening of this incident, whole family was down and quiet. Keeping the mess and tidying things up.. Tired and moodless all day.
Everyone was calm and speechless.
Let's just hope that justice will be served.
All me and my family want is just to have back our stuffs.. We care less for the money this time..
I'm thankful that nobody is hurt, especially loved ones.
Gotta think of way to solve my problem now... Sigh. Think gota spend few more thousand to get another computer that is sufficient enough to help me with my works. Money fly again while I'm having financial crisis. Oh god bless me and my family please. ( reminds me of a holyman that me and my family always visit every first day of new year. I can still remember him saying that our bad verse is over but getting robbed now? Duhh.. So much for believing it. He said the same thing last year.
Blogging with my phone now.. Only thing left. Lol
Goddammit.
Do ignore any typing or grammar mistakes because I'm using my phone to type and it's lil bit annoying with the dictionary thingy.
As soon as I received the bad news saying that my house was robbed, me my baby cupcake and Nikke rushed back to my place to check out whats goin on.
Of all things, the robber just had to take my CPU away... And casuin me now not able to do any work at all... Kiss goodbye to my desktop at my very own final year of my course where I gota do my projects and stuff!?! It's a big WTF moment and I was Not happy of course.
Lost precious stuffs like mums jewelry, some money.. My CPU.. and nearly lost my brothers wii set including his tv. Funny thing happened was my DSLR is left untouched.
After the happening of this incident, whole family was down and quiet. Keeping the mess and tidying things up.. Tired and moodless all day.
Everyone was calm and speechless.
Let's just hope that justice will be served.
All me and my family want is just to have back our stuffs.. We care less for the money this time..
I'm thankful that nobody is hurt, especially loved ones.
Gotta think of way to solve my problem now... Sigh. Think gota spend few more thousand to get another computer that is sufficient enough to help me with my works. Money fly again while I'm having financial crisis. Oh god bless me and my family please. ( reminds me of a holyman that me and my family always visit every first day of new year. I can still remember him saying that our bad verse is over but getting robbed now? Duhh.. So much for believing it. He said the same thing last year.
Blogging with my phone now.. Only thing left. Lol
Goddammit.
Do ignore any typing or grammar mistakes because I'm using my phone to type and it's lil bit annoying with the dictionary thingy.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
The rain at four a.m
It's four am now and I'm still not asleep like the others.. Feeling so unfair of being treated so differently due to poor skill sets that I have..
Did my best cracking through my brains and veins to finish what ever job given.. Ended up being critique.. Felt like there's no
Mutual respect at all!!! I'm sure that wouldn't happen to other classmates that's better than me.
Don't go telling me now or go saying that you can show them who's better or so whatever or even saying don't give up. Don't gimme that shit in this time of condition now or else I'll slap your mouth. I wonder why people can't just accept people that's not equivalent than them. For gods sake, do show some mutual respect man, you're once a student, you're once a Learning person, you're once the person that has poor skill set that I do! SO WHY CAN'T JUST YOU ALL BE FAIR FOR ONCE AND GIVE PEOPLE some Goddamn respect! Not everyone is perfect!
I SWEAR TO GOD IF I HAD THE LICENSE TO KILL, I would be probably enjoying a killing massacre in my campus already.
Did my best cracking through my brains and veins to finish what ever job given.. Ended up being critique.. Felt like there's no
Mutual respect at all!!! I'm sure that wouldn't happen to other classmates that's better than me.
Don't go telling me now or go saying that you can show them who's better or so whatever or even saying don't give up. Don't gimme that shit in this time of condition now or else I'll slap your mouth. I wonder why people can't just accept people that's not equivalent than them. For gods sake, do show some mutual respect man, you're once a student, you're once a Learning person, you're once the person that has poor skill set that I do! SO WHY CAN'T JUST YOU ALL BE FAIR FOR ONCE AND GIVE PEOPLE some Goddamn respect! Not everyone is perfect!
I SWEAR TO GOD IF I HAD THE LICENSE TO KILL, I would be probably enjoying a killing massacre in my campus already.
the bitter part of my life.
it always have to come into the money issue when something happens. i had no idea why.
seeing own father not having the right attitude to work himself out from his own trouble and making his whole family getting involved. i had no idea why is he such a person, never knowing or being being aware of his actions that could bring disaster to his own family.
building a family isn't difficult, all you have to do as a guardian is to be more responsible, make more wise decisions and most importantly not being to stubborn!
scrap away those lousy principal of yours when you're only talking cock with others please. every knows that you're good in spilling out useless preaches out from your mouth.
being so packed up with my final two semester in LUCT, being busy with stuffs going on. trying to save up money as much as i could. i feel kinda tense out almost everyday when i open my eyes to start my very own day. peoples feeling, own portfolio, thesis , family members. these are the stuffs i always think of. on how to help them more ; to not frust about it. but at the end. i realize that i'm still not capable of doing anything until i graduate from my college life.
WILL RESUME TYPING THIS BLOG LATER.
seeing own father not having the right attitude to work himself out from his own trouble and making his whole family getting involved. i had no idea why is he such a person, never knowing or being being aware of his actions that could bring disaster to his own family.
building a family isn't difficult, all you have to do as a guardian is to be more responsible, make more wise decisions and most importantly not being to stubborn!
scrap away those lousy principal of yours when you're only talking cock with others please. every knows that you're good in spilling out useless preaches out from your mouth.
being so packed up with my final two semester in LUCT, being busy with stuffs going on. trying to save up money as much as i could. i feel kinda tense out almost everyday when i open my eyes to start my very own day. peoples feeling, own portfolio, thesis , family members. these are the stuffs i always think of. on how to help them more ; to not frust about it. but at the end. i realize that i'm still not capable of doing anything until i graduate from my college life.
WILL RESUME TYPING THIS BLOG LATER.
Friday, February 18, 2011
2011 and a madafuckin pissed mood
Jz checked da lkw student portal via iPhone and guess what ..my attendance was marked madafuckin 0 for all the semesters that I've been through. I can't accept this man..lkw is getting madafuckin worse!!! You son if a bitch low class shit college that i ever been to!!!!!! No wonder so many people quit this madafuckin college!! Damm money sucker college. Nobody will understand the pain of being a madafuckin Lkw student!! Argh fuck.. and next,returning to madafuckin lkw on nex week.. Which either on the 22nd or the 26th of feb. Sighs like motherfuckin frustrated bastard. Jz wana change course and faster graduate from ther a.s.a.p ... I can't this shit for so long! How i wish not to go baq ther anymore! God dammit.
Monday, January 17, 2011
For the love of my life..
its 3.35am now... head was full of thoughts... regretting on some stuff what i did back then...hurting her so badly.
well...it already happened..so to me..i think it no need of me to feel regret but to do better job and make her as happy as possible with my might.
thinking of ways to make her life more colorful then ever...i hope by time everything goes better...
God bless and may her sad past be gone. i love you baby-cupcake..and i will never leave you for another girl. trust me..also,mark my words ya...
p/s- will use my full force and best to make you one happy cheerful young lady everyday! it's a mission for me to make you smile everyday..^^
well...it already happened..so to me..i think it no need of me to feel regret but to do better job and make her as happy as possible with my might.
thinking of ways to make her life more colorful then ever...i hope by time everything goes better...
God bless and may her sad past be gone. i love you baby-cupcake..and i will never leave you for another girl. trust me..also,mark my words ya...
p/s- will use my full force and best to make you one happy cheerful young lady everyday! it's a mission for me to make you smile everyday..^^
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| i do cherish your love,your support and your everything... remember this cupcake? its a 1st present from you~ |
curiosity kills....myself.
today, one unknown number text me and saying, can i know you? and asking to be friend...sounds like a single girl flirting... and me with curiosity replied that unknown persons message... without any intention of cheating on my fiancée, I've typed in a very playboy-ish tone and sounded more like i'm going to cheat on my current fiancée..
anxiously with the itchy feeling i had, i began texting for a while and asked for her Facebook add..
without knowing that the whole situation was set up to test my loyalty and commitment to the relationship i'm having now...
as i acted as though i was single writting those flirty messages....
she was reading all these while...she was the mastermind.....
and...
i hurt her feelings badly without noticing...
i felt so bad being so stupid and curious just to know one unknown person...
we nearly breakup because of this issue...
it's just one step closer to breakup....thx to me...
her believe towards me now are lesser..... yet sad to hear that...
but what can i do? i didn't know it would turn out that bad either...
stupid of me to do that dumb move...sighs.
have been together for ten months.... and i can only say sorry to apologize...
i just hope i can wipe that bad incident off her mind...
hope she forgets it soon....but i know it will stuck in her head for a time...
a big sighs for me....
and...
another frustration appears.....
anxiously with the itchy feeling i had, i began texting for a while and asked for her Facebook add..
without knowing that the whole situation was set up to test my loyalty and commitment to the relationship i'm having now...
as i acted as though i was single writting those flirty messages....
she was reading all these while...she was the mastermind.....
and...
i hurt her feelings badly without noticing...
i felt so bad being so stupid and curious just to know one unknown person...
we nearly breakup because of this issue...
it's just one step closer to breakup....thx to me...
her believe towards me now are lesser..... yet sad to hear that...
but what can i do? i didn't know it would turn out that bad either...
stupid of me to do that dumb move...sighs.
have been together for ten months.... and i can only say sorry to apologize...
i just hope i can wipe that bad incident off her mind...
hope she forgets it soon....but i know it will stuck in her head for a time...
a big sighs for me....
and...
another frustration appears.....
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